The one with the windows down

Tonight I drove home with my car windows down. It was totally refreshing to have the cool evening breeze rushing through while I listened to a completely relatable song.

Saturn's Light- Deb Talan

Saturn's light throws a ring around the moon

and I said my prayers too soon

No one was listening

There's a hush on the street

I can feel my own heart beat

and my lonesome breathing

but my soul's little bird can still sing

I want good love

I want it so bad

It's a seed stuck in my throat

It's a weed around my hope

it makes me choke and I can only breathe outside

or in tall buildings with high ceilings and open doors

Isn't there someone out there I am here for?

Isn't there someone out there I am here for?

It takes a will

just to make it through the night

when to wait and when to fight

and swing and missing

When we meet,

will his eyes recall me?

I look for his face

everywhere in the dark

and I carry my torch of bright stars

Because I want good love

I want it so bad

It's a seed stuck in my throat

It's a weed around my hope

it makes me choke

and I can only breathe outside

or in tall buildings with high ceilings and open doors

Isn't there someone out there I am here for?

Isn't there someone out there I am here for?

Couples kiss across counters and tables

I smile and then look at the wall

But some people hold hands

and they don't pay attention,

like their love

is somebody else's inventions

Our heads, they hold back

But our hearts run to strangers

and they say, 'Look at me, look at me, look at me.'

I want good love

I want it so bad

It's a seed stuck in my throat

It's a weed around my hope

it makes me choke

and I can only breathe outside

or in tall buildings with high ceilings and open doors

Isn't there someone out there I am here for?

Isn't there someone out there I am here for?

While driving and listening I thought back to a conversation I had once about the idea of living back around my family. I mentioned how I thought the idea of living close to my family seemed fun because I could see them regularly for fun, meals, outings, etc. The person I was talking to said, “Would you really see them though? I live in the same town as my family and hardly see them. It’s a nice thought, but would it actually happen…” I wholeheartedly answered that yes, it would happen. And now that I’m back my answer is definitely YES. I had cousins over Monday night and watched old home videos and tonight I had dinner with an aunt and cousin and did some ‘surprise’ birthday party planning for my mom.  Home is where I belong (at least for now). Although I have the love of my family I sing, “Isn’t there someone out there I am here for?”