Everything about work is hard. Deciding to leave a job is hard.
Leaving is hard. Looking and applying is hard. Interviewing is hard. Being
rejected is hard. Getting a new job and starting new routines is hard. It is
especially hard to find an acceptable balance between what you are willing and
able to sacrifice for a new job and what the true non-negotiable stuff is. Who
needs two consecutive days off anyway?
I have, for the better part of my life, lived my life for others.
That meant putting others goals and expectations on myself rather than making
my own. From birth through high school that looked like getting good grades and
keeping out of trouble to make my parents proud. In college that meant finding
a man to marry and making his dreams my dreams. After my divorce life was a
little different. It wasn't so much about living as it was about simply
surviving. Now that I am examining what it looks like to make my life my own I am
overwhelmed and confused most of the time. Now that I have time for myself I
want to be free to chase the dreams I have for myself.
Dreams do not often come true overnight, I realize this, but when it
comes to the things I want I am generally impatient. Much like the 29 years
that the Royals waited to make it back to the World Series I too will have to
wait to make a move to Colorado. Only I hope it does not take that long.
For now, I am doing my best to adjust to a new job and the idea of
staying in Kansas City for a while longer. Let’s be real though, what a fun
time this is to be in Kansas City!
#BeRoyal #Baseball
